I Never Said I Loved You
By Rhik Samadder
A vital, moving and darkly funny memoir by a Guardian columnist who lays bare all the imperfect ways he tries to cope with his childhood trauma.
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On an unlikely backpacking trip, Rhik and his mother find themselves speaking openly for the first time in years. Afterwards, the depression that has weighed down on Rhik begins to loosen its grip for a moment - so he seizes the opportunity: to own it, to understand it, and to find out where it came from.
Through this begins a journey of investigation, healing and recovery. Along the way Rhik learns some shocking truths about his family, and realizes that, in turn, he will need to confront the secrets he has long buried. But through this, he triumphs over his fears and brings his depression into the light.
I Never Said I Loved You is the story of how Rhik learned to let go, and then keep going. With unique humour and honesty, he has created a powerfully rich, funny and poignant exploration of the light and dark in all of us.
TW: Sexual abuse, self-mutilation, eating disorders, suicide
Read if you: don't want to fix him.